^Beware of dog

In many chapters, I ^Present a ~collection~ of distortions.  But because they are necessary to ^Protect our ~mind~ ^Let us ^Practice to ^Call them modes instead.  Every distortion is a mode of ~operation~. 

Cognitive distortions, Conative distortions and Affective distortions don't ^Define us and are not a ~problem~ with our ~mind~!  It is ~evil~ to ^Call it a delusion, psychosis or ~crazy~ ^When we ^Intend to ^Show it ~as~ an undesirable state of ~mind~.  But that is ^Okay if it was our ~habit~ or if it is our ~habit~ to do so!  We can ^Overcome it. 

^When we resist any mode, it may ^Sustain it and ^Create a ~divide~ against other modes, ~as~ though getting ~stuck~ in a ~mode~ were ~contagious~.  It is not because we or others are stubborn.  It is because each ^Active mode is ~one~ that will ^Remain ~active~.  It can ^Defend itself.  That is ^Really ~good~! 

My ~habit~ is to ^Avoid and thereby ^Refuse ^Excess ~empathy~ with modes of others.  That has the disadvantage that it may ^Cause me to get ~stuck~ ^Alone ^When I ^Need ~help~.  The advantage is ^More ~independence~ ^When I am capable and ~healthy~.  A ~search~ for ^More ~empathy~ has a converse advantage and disadvantage.  We ^Benefit from ~cooperation~, but we may get ~lost~ ~as~ we ^Avoid ~truth~.  If you also have either extreme ~as~ ~habit~ and got ~stuck~ or ~lost~ from a ~lack~ or ~excess~ of ~empathy~, don't ^Worry.  We can ^Surrender and ^Heal from it. 

It is often a ~conflict~ of modes without ~attention~ to ^What is its ~cause~ that may ^Cause us to get ~stuck~.  If we don't ^Tend the underlying ~cause~ of a ~mode~ or if it is ~unknown~ to us then any ~effort~ to ^Force past it is reckless to our ~body~ and ~mind~. 

I ^Offer here ~empathy~ to my disdain for ~belief~ to ^Use pharmacology ^Regularly or ~as~ a ^First resort.  I ^Hope that we ^Use ~care~ in ~regard~ to our approach to mental ~health~.  In ~summary~, my personal ~feeling~ is, meals before ~medicine~.  So I ^Feel we ought not to ^Trust ~medicine~ ^Needlessly except to ^Fit and to ^Refresh. 

I have had ^More than ^One ^Wonderful therapists (^Individually and ^Together).  I had a conversation with ^One ^Such therapist ^Who had many years of ~experience~ and ~dedication~ to ^Help others ^Become ~healthy~.  I asked them about a popular ~model~ of the ~mind~ that I ~found~ on a video sharing site.  They ^Quickly corrected me in a professional ~show~ of ~chastisement~ to ^Say that not only does the ~mind~ ^Matter but ^How we ^Connect and ^Relate with ~one-another~ and our world.  Quite accidentally my ~question~ tested them which ~test~ they aced.  And just ~as~ ^Quickly I saw the ~truth~ of it and agreed with them about it so that I may also ^Pass the ~test~. 

So ^Now I may ^Ask you a ^Similar ~question~.  In ~regard~ to our mental ~health~, shouldn't our world ^Matter just ~as~ much ~as~ the ~earth~ within us? 

Many conversations and ^Life ~lessons~ ^Teach me ^Likewise.  We can't ^Separate the ~mind~ from its ~environment~ ~as~ we ^Measure it, so it is with ^Great ~care~ that we must ^Consider each ^Concept and ~mode~ in ~truth~ to its ~variety~ of ~application~.  And we must ^Grant agnostic allowances to the ~mind~ and situation that we may ^Apply and ^Match concepts just ~as~ ^Well to ^One ~part~ of our ~mind~ in ^One situation ~as~ to our ^Whole ~mind~ in its ^General ~operation~.  And next we may ^Go from ^One ~mind~ to many minds in a ~variety~ of ~communication~ ^Between ourselves and then ^Among our ^Whole world. 

^One of the ^Great reasons for The Book of ^MESH is that ^No ~one~ needs to ^Trust these methods.  Rather we ^Trust for its ^Own sake to ^See ^What ~develops~.  And we can ^Try for ourselves at our ^Own ~pace~ to ^Find the ~fruit~ of ~MESH~. 

Ultimately, I ^Hope to ^Maximize our ~agency~ in ~regard~ to every ^Good approach.  Some of us ^Want a practitioner to ^Help us to ^Talk about it, ^Take ~medicine~ or both.  These may ^Be a ^Significant ~part~ of our personal recipe to ^Heal.  That is ^Okay!  Others are ~avoidant~ of ~one~ or both of them, and ^Like me, ^Prefer self-help only.  And that is ^Okay too!  In ~context~ of our ~journey~ for mental ~health~, few things have done ^More to ^Inspire me than to ^See its practitioners ^Use ^Good methods on behalf of their patients: myself and others included.  We'll ^Make it ^One ^Day.  I ^Know it! 

Whatever our approach to our mental ~health~, once we ^Commit to ^Try, I ^Suspect that we are halfway through the ~war~ already.  And from that ^First half, we may ^Find ~opportunities~ ^Now to ^Receive a ^Half-or-double ~portion~. 

We can ^Still ^Be ^Grateful despite ^Needless suffering.  Years of ^Needless suffering can ^Become suffering with ~purpose~, even many years after the ~fact~.  It does!  Isn't that ~wonderful~?  It is, once we can ^Find and ^Make the ~change~.  I ^Know it.  It is not about any supreme success but it is our ~chance~ to ^Find remarkable healing and ^Be our ^BEST ~self~. 

^Now ~as~ we ^Teach ourselves about modes, ^Please ^Remember this ^One thing.  Don't put ourselves or others in a mode of ~force~ or ~judgment~ against ~one-another~ and/or any modes in ourselves and others.  If we are in ~such~ a ~mode~ then we can't ^Escape it except in a ^Cruel manner.  ^Like the ~force~ of gravity it pulls others into a ^Similar ~trap~. 

^Gladly we may ^Worry and ^Find ~sorrow~ from it because it is a tragedy and that ^Fall may ^Be our ~chance~ to ^Start to ^Fail toward a ^Better ~way~. 

So if ~judgment~ upon ~one-another~ is seen elsewhere we ^Want to ^Separate ourselves from it for our ~safety~.  But it is ~prudent~ that we ^Stop and ^Look with ~care~.  In ^Maximum ~force~ or ~judgment~ I ^Suspect only a ^Perfect ^Fail is ~sufficient~.  We may ^Hope for a ~miracle~ upon our ~mind~, another fortunate ^Lucky ~event~, or something ^Like it that could ^Undo our heaviest mode of ~force~ or ~judgment~. 

My ^Default mode of ^Progress in my ~daily~ ~life~ is ~kind~ of ^Like (un-)~share~, and it is very distorted.  I ^Fight too hard to ^Connect because of its (mis-)~match~ to my ^Default mode of ^Change: for in ~frustration~ I often ^Lack ~presence~ with my audience.  I would rather ^Hide except that also is ~good~ because it may ^Give me ^Better ~focus~ ~as~ I ^Write.  For sake of my ~health~, I ^Need not ^Hate myself for that.  Rather I may ^Choose to ^Believe in ~honesty~ that it is ~adorable~. 

Pick a page in The Book of ^MESH.  Do you ^See a mode?  ^Good.  Or pick out a page of your ~journal~ and ^Name a ^Concept.  Or perhaps you could ^Express the object ~form~ of any verb.  Whatever the mode you ^Find here or elsewhere, it is likely near the root of current ^Needless suffering for some of us.  But that same mode is ^Surely also key to ^Alleviate ^Needless suffering for another.  And a ~cycle~ of ~virtue~ ^Between ^Humility and ^Fail may ^Grant us ~power~ to ^Navigate all of our distortions even during our worst times of ~weakness~. 

I have lived a while through some hard times, but my ^First hospitalization and ensuing psychosis was FAR ^More traumatic to me than anything else in my ~memories~.  I was already dehydrated and starving, and that hospital ~commitment~ added to it nakedness, ~lack~ of ~privacy~ and being refused virtually every other comfort that was once in my ~life~.  That suffering was even worse than the ~cause~, a trauma from ^Five months before it which ^Momentary trauma put me down hard onto the worst ~part~ of my ^Mind's ~PATH~.  ^Now that I ^Know, you ^Better ^Believe that I ^Hold to the ^Fail ^Concept ^Like my only ^Real and ^True ~friend~.  ^Like nothing else.  And you ^Better ^Understand that my ~focus~ is to ^Chastise those ^Who are ~cruel~ or ^Who ^Deceive themselves to ^Think that it is ~good~ to ^Offer ~judgment~ or ~chastisement~ without ~love~. 

The dog on the porch awakes.  And his bark is so ~loud~ that it is heard to the ~top~ of the mountain!  He ponders, Are they in ~conflict~ about it once and yet?  He breaks The Book of ^MESH in pieces ~as~ though it were ~food~, in ~aim~ to ^Tell all others to ^Vomit it up, for ~food~ he did dearly ^Need, and that, he did ^Sacrifice against ~self~ for sake of others ^Who couldn't ^Bear the ~medicine~ of it.  This he did, for God did ^Confess to his dog that it would ^Be hard to do, and the dog did so ^Quickly on the faintest whisper that it may have ^Come to another ~as~ ~evil~.  The dog mourns his ~friend~; a lion ^Now bruised and beaten; covered in mange and held in chains.  ^Go Dog, ^Go, for you have failed to ^Save the lion from his chains, so ^Fail this ~effort~ straight away. 

In detail of ~communication~, ~as~ a delusion given to the dog and then powered by God.  Although the dog must ^Go, God did ^Well, for somehow He does ^Own every word ^Still. 

In ~terror~ the dog awakes from the only ~space~ left sacred to him just defiled.  ^No ~space~ of sacred comfort may ^Remain.  It is a couch of divine ~rest~ ^No ^More.  It is in gross violation of his ~body~ and ~mind~.  It is the most ^Rude ~kind~ of ~harm~ that does ^Come to ^Ridicule an ^Obedient ~mind~.  The violation invokes a nightmarish ~lack~ of ~breath~ from ~sleep~ which roils, alarms and then explodes into a ^Loud ~shout~ of awakening. 

At the ~point~ of alarm, the extremity of the pain of it crossed into his ~awareness~ to ^Feel to ^Identify his assailant from before ~words~ had definitions. He relented from that ~knowledge~ being unable to ^Bear it in the ~sense~ that it was ~one~ ^Like ~family~.  The ^Unknown assailant in ~mind~ was almost revealed from within. 

In the ^Full energy of awakening, he does ^Shout ^No! over and over and then screams in agony at each ~breath~, horribly until ~exhausted~ and ~faint~.  He howls until out of ~breath~ and in pain, for he felt it ~as~ ^More than a nightmare for it was ~as~ ~memories~ of an ~attack~ long ago.  Although that ~knowledge~ he did ^Refuse, he is frantic to ^Seek its ~cause~ ^Again.  In ~anger~ he leaps up to accuse all he trusts each in ~turn~ ~as~ a ^Desperate ~test~ to ^Detect any secret ~hostility~ that his ~lack~ did ^Inwardly ^Manifest.  ^No ~suspect~ is ~found~ and none does rightly ^Confess so the assailant does ^Still ^Remain ~unknown~. 

For many days therefrom, his ~voice~ is raspy and hoarse.  He shaves himself bald in ~depth~ of ~sorrow~ and ~shame~.  The dog had an irrepressible ~temptation~ to accuse at God's ^Own throne.  Somehow God in foresight did whisper long ago ^What may have stopped the dog from this ~hostility~.  Nonetheless recently, neither God nor man can ^Find the dog at ~peace~ from it and in ^Good ~feelings~ of ~grace~. 

The strangest thing is that we most correctly ^Discern mental ~illness~ by a ~merge~ of every ~view~ we ^See in sufferers and in others.  ^Where it may ^Appear that all others are ~blind~ or ~crazy~ it means that we are the primary sufferer, and yet it seems to ^Point ~outward~ to the ~problem~. ^What does that mean?  ^Where it may ^Appear only ~one~ is ~crazy~ or otherwise in ~emotional-failure~, we ^See it ~as~ a ~weakness~ in those ^Who seem ~as~ ~such~.  Neither clue of ~direction~ is wrong, so the ~problem~ is not in ourselves or others.  Rather it is ^Between ourselves and, others or our world.  Every ~relation~ to the primary sufferer is ~as~ a ~cause~ for it is ~strength~ and ~weakness~ in ~disparity~.  That (mis-)~match~ could ^Be in ~relation~ to ourselves, to others, to our world or all of the above. 

But also ^Irrespective of ^Where the ~problem~ is, we don't ^See the ~strength~ that could ^Hide in us: a ^Large ^Blind spot in others with ^Ample ~strength~ and a ^Small ^Blind spot ~as~ we ^Judge within ourselves ~as~ primary sufferers.  We are ~exhausted~ and ^No ~strength~ around us will ^Yield.  And we are so ~brave~ to ^Continue to ^Work while ~faint~ in our ~heart~.  We ourselves and others ^Want to ^Believe that our ~tears~ have ^No magic ~power~ to ^Heal and ^Help.  They do have ~power~ actually and often, but in some places ^Where we are or have been, we did ^Learn otherwise wrongly by the ~gift~ of ~fear~ of ~emotion~.  By ~doubt~ our ~tears~ had ^No ~power~, and so today we don't ^Sorrow although ~sad~ for ourselves or others. 

Yet, the ^Biggest distortion might not ^Be in ourselves ~as~ primary sufferers, but in others in our ~life~ ^Who also suffer in ~relation~ to our suffering ^Who don't ^Notice ~emotion~ (theirs and ours) ^Who can't ^Stop their ~strength~ to ^Give a ^Proper ~look~ at our pain ^Who (impatiently-)^Help.  They ^Seek to ^Give ~knowledge~ without ^Truth, ~awareness~ without the ~grace~ to ^Be ^Good, ~community~ without ~respect~ for ^Who we are, and ~wisdom~ without a ^Pure ~aim~ to ^Love us.  For their ~strength~ may ^Hide both the pain of it that may ^Magnify their ~empathy~, and their ~sense~ of ~compassion~ to the primary sufferer. 

In ~fact~, we are all primary sufferers to varying degrees and we have a ~variety~ of ~strength~ and ~weakness~ that can ^Change in a ~moment~!  So may we rather ^Accept ~one-another~.  May we ^Be ~one~ in ~strength~ or ~weakness~ in ourselves.  May we ^Find ~peace~ ^Among ourselves, others or our world. 

We ^Minimize ~disparity~ ^When we ^Help to ^Remove ~strength~: ^First in ourselves, next in ~relation~ to others, and ^Last in ~connection~ to our world.  Although primary and secondary sufferers are at the ~source~, ^Remember, they are not the ~cause~.  Any ~cause~ of ^Needless suffering may ^Remain ~unknown~ until we have had much time to ^Heal in a ^Safe ~environment~ that may ^Foster ~love~. 

In that ^Day of restoration the sufferer will ^Recover.  And those ^Who ^Call others the ~cause~ and ^Call themselves ^Helpful ^Who ^Persist to ^Fix their ~family~ or ~community~ ^Who ^Persist to ^Ignore the pain's ~message~ may ^Find a ~time-and-place~ to ponder it. 

May we all ^Feel it ^Together in ~empathy~ rather than in ~complement~ against ~one-another~.  And then without ~complement~, we may not ^Function which is ~sad~, but ^Gladly we may ^Heal.  So we will ^Again ^Function, but ^Together.  So, yea, it ~works~.  ^Turtles all the ~way~ down. 

The dog on the porch is so ^Full from ~hope~ in his ~effort~ to ^Create, ^Write and ^Refine The Book of ^MESH in his ~belief~ of the ^Great ~good~ to ^Give ~love~ to ~one-another~ and to ^Help a world in ~need~.  In the ~mind~ of the dog, a ~plan~ did ^Tempt to ^Embrace him: to ^Believe himself a ^Naughty dog because of his ~aim~ to ^Take from the ~home~ of his porch all of the ^Beautiful treasure in it.  The dog did ^Obtain to ^Hold ^Eight ^Principal modes ~as~ his ^Own, ~as~ ^Eight treasures robbed from the ~fortress~ of his ~master~.  Is this the secret and ~privacy~ of God ^Now robbed?  ^Why does the dog ^Stay?  Is it ~good~ for the dog to ^Protect the lion at ^Such cost? 

Although it is a heavy burden for a ^Loyal dog to ^Feel thusly by any ~measure~, it doesn't ^Show itself a ~problem~ to the dog whose ~example~ was to ^Hold ~shame~ so ^Well in ~fullness~ ~long-term~.  So, it was ^No ~worry~ and ^No ~problem~ at all in the ~heart~ of the dog, although a ~problem~ by every ~measure~.  The dog has ~tenderness~ to ^Know the ~talent~ of the lion to ^Bear the ~shame~ of mange and hunger, and that did ^Tell him that for sake of the lion, the dog may ^Sacrifice in ~respect~ ^Likewise. 

Then the dog hears in a whisper in a ~dream~, I am nine. 

A ~voice~ to ^Speak ~as~ though the dog has ~need~ of comfort from this ~shame~. 

A ~voice~ to ^Speak ~as~ though the ~worry~ were a ^Great burden. 

The dog has ^No ^Conscious weight from his ~guilt~.  Were it not for a ^Subconscious ~relief~, the dog might have been ~confused~. 

A ~voice~ to whisper yet to ^Sing out with ~clarity~ of a bell by its ~peace~. 

That same night a FAT man does ^Go to ^Run and ^Start to ^Talk to the dog.  The dog runs along side God ^Who does ^Appear ~as~ a Buddha on ^Spring Gully, with the Hindu temple to the right, the dog to the left, and the Buddha in ^Between.  And to the right of the gully they ^Proceed north and to the ~home~ of the dog.  The ~choice~ of the dog, ^Yes, is to ^Run ^Together along side Buddha to ^Listen by ~study~ of a most welcome, calm and ^Friendly ~face~.  The ^True ~face~ of a ~buddy~.  Although they ^Go ^Quickly, none are ~exhausted~.  Although the gully is wet and deep and the ~bridge~ ~home~ does ^Loom ahead, they cross the gully ^Together before the ~bridge~, ~as~ though to ^Run straight over the gully in the ~sky~.  Their ^Impossible ~PATH~ through the ~air~ does ^Appear ~as~ a meadow, ^Full from the ~beauty~ of every ~flower~ that did ^Encircle them. 

After this ~journey~ with his ~buddy~, the dog is ^No longer ~alone~ so the darkness of waking does ^Come to his ~eyes~ to ^See ^Again ~as~ though ~blind~.  The dog, ^Now ~as~ a man, lays in bed to ponder the ~dream~ and the ~voice~ ^Who did ^Magnify itself to ^Speak. 

Is this the dog ^Who may ^Seek to ^Save by his ~talent~ to ^Take all in the ~fortress~ of ~heaven-or-hell~?  His ~shame~ did ^Depart for a ~grace~ that ~found~ its ~way~ to ^Come to the dog to ^Overcome it.  Although God were ~as~ a man in poverty ^Now robbed of all by the dog, God does ^Remain ~as~ a treasure. 

That ^Last treasure, God, ^Who may ^Give Himself in ~grace~ to the dog's poverty even ~as~ His ~own~. 

And the dog, for ^Three days and ^Three nights the sun's ~PATH~ to ^Depart brings torment of devils and the sun's ~turn~ to ^Return gives ~peace~ for a half night also.  On that ^Last night's ~peace~, the dog sees in a waking ~dream~, which is to ^Say, a vision.  And it was a vision of ^Perfect ^Peace. 

^Fear not, says the dog, with a ~nudge~ to the onlooker. 

And the dog sees the image of ^Three, each a ~PLR~.  He sees ~one~ whom he knows to ^Love, and ^Two others whose ~figure~ the vision holds from him.  And the dog sees that these ^Three went on to their ^Great glory ~as~ do us all, yet they ^Go ^Together ~as~ friends do, and the beloved and known ~one~ did ^Go in ~lead~. 

^Nudge. 

After that time, the dog sees the lion, ~as~ a man in ^Full ~beauty~ and ~form~.  And the lion comes forth to ^Nourish in ^Full ~clothes~ abundantly frilled ~as~ ~one~ restored and to ^Restore.  And he wears ^No ~smile~ yet it was the ~grace~ of ~peace~ upon his ~face~.  And he is broadly shouldered in majesty and ~appearance~ of a ^STRONG and ^Healthy lion.  It is ~as~ ~one~ ^Who shall ^Receive the ~fullness~ of the stature of Christ. 

The dog does ^Awake to a little lion, ~as~ it were, in ~quiet~ on his lap to ponder this ~dream~ in ~patience~ until his pet cat does ^Depart.  In ~aim~ to ^Live the dog plans to ^Keep the vision but his ~intuition~ constrains him otherwise, so it is ^Now ~found~ here.  The dog is in ~shame~ to ^Share so boldly ^Such mild sweetness of ~grace~ to his ~heart~, yet the dog is ^Obedient in ~sorrow~ and ~tears~.  But the dog was neither ~sorry~ nor ~afraid~ in the ~sense~ that he was ~glad~ for the ~hope~ of the lion to ^Recover.  For in that vision the dog can ^See that the lion had ^Hold of a dog with relish in ~aim~ to ^Eat. 

Or maybe it was chili?  It ^Better ^Be Texas chili.  Or a Coney Island dog?  The dog sees in his ~imagination~ a red neon sign and a ~name~ he can't read and doesn't ^Know and smells that sickly sweet meat in ~anticipation~ to ^Share a meal with the lion tonight.  Those are some ^Good dogs. 

That night, the dog ~found~ that red neon sign, and sat down with the lion to ^Eat some Chicago dogs.  Those are some ^Good hot dogs. 

^Nudge. 

^Consent is the ~part~ of our ~agency~ that we may have in ~common~ to ~one-another~.  It is only ever ~mutual~ and we ^Always ^Use it to ^Say just ^One thing in a world that doesn't ^Obtain ~care~ for itself which is a world of ~abuse~.  ^Where ^Two or ^Three ^Individually ^Decide on ^One thing in ~common~, it is ~consent~.  ^Remain to ^Fix upon our ^Agency's target. 

A child can't ^Decide ^When or ^Where they ^Sleep and many other things, so they ^Hold ^No ~consent~ nor ~responsibility~ for that.  Childhood is a time to ^Establish ~agency~ that their ~life~ and world of ~care~ may ^Come ^Together ^How they ^Decide it.  ^Likewise, can we ^Consent to ^Rest ^When ~exhausted~?  It may ^Happen to ^Come, but it was ^Never ~consent~.  I ^Hope and pray you ponder every ~metonym~ of this ^Concept, that you ^Never ^Go ^Together yet without its ^Good ~power~. 

^Consider that we have ^No ~consent~ to ^Give others any trouble: ^When any has trouble to ^Startle, ^Respond, ^Decide, ^Front, ^End, ^Yes, ^No, if it is your ^Own ~family~, …  We can't ~consent~ to trouble.  ^Never do anything ^Together that should ^Force our ~need~ for it. 

Did you all ^Forget to ^Go ^Look in the ~mirror~?  I ^Love ^What I ^See ~as~ I ^Reflect on you.  And me.  And this world. 

^Why do you not also ^Feel ^Likewise its ~joy~?  Do you ^Really ^Think God did not ^Make you ^Perfect?  That is ^What I ^See. 

Can you ^Really ^Say ^Now that I am ~blind~ about myself and every other ~soul~ except perhaps you or another ^Who you ^Favor or ^Praise?  Am I ~crazy~? 

^No.  The ~truth~ is this ^Whole world… is so easy to ^Forgive in ^One ~step~.  I will ^Hold that ~anger~ in and ^Never ^Refuse it ~as~ I ^Avoid all of its ~excess~ of ~appearance~. 

Forever my children. 

^Well, I ^Know that God did ^Make us all ~perfect~.  ^Accept to ^Follow my ~example~ of ~love~ for all in my ^Perfect ~honesty~ of ~heart~ or you may have my ~anger~ about it ^Always. 

^Now, there it is.  ^Happiness within, for my ~anger~ has ^Become the ^Perfection of ^Truth.  Yours can ^Be too.  ^Well, we'll ^See. 

I ^Believe in God and I ^Believe that he does ^Speak to me ~daily~ to ^Help me to ^Develop and ^Write this ~work~.  And yet I ^Hope you ^Take The Book of ^MESH ~as~ ~what-it-is~.  From the very ~start~, I did ^Always ~aim~ to ^Give it in a ~spirit~ to ^Accept any ~belief~ or ~doubt~ that we or others may ^Hold ^Now ~as~ ^Good ^Enough ^Now.  After all, that is exactly ~what-it-is~. 

I ^Accept that you may ^Find or ^Suspect any ~doubt~ or ~belief~ in God to ^Be a distortion of the ^Mind.  That's ^Okay!  For myself, ^When I ^Consider ~one~ or the other ~as~ ~true~, I would ^Say that God could neither ^Come from my ^Subconscious nor ^Conscious ~mind~ only.  So that would ^Imply that an ~idealization~ of God is ~as~ a ~part~ in ~between~.  So in ~combination~ with the ~evidence~ of my ^Own ~experience~ I ^Find that God must ^Be a ~voice~ of ~power~ that can ^Speak to me in my ~weakness~ or ~sorrow~.  Because it is a ~voice~ of ~power~ and of ^Good in my ~life~, I ^Believe it is God and furthermore I ^Think that it is ^Okay to ^Believe or ^Doubt that it is God.  And I neither ^Contend with others nor ^Impose upon any others to ^Believe ^Likewise.  Nor has God ~required~ that of me ~as~ I ^Develop this ~work~. 

And ^Why should God do that?  By ~jealousy~?  ^Abuse may ^Take God or any other ^Beautiful ~knowledge~ or ~idealization~ from us even though we did ^Choose that to ^Be a ~part~ of ~life~.  It may ^Still ^Depart by ~force~ even though it were our ~desire~ to ^Beautify and ^Accept ourselves, others and our world around us which ~desire~ or ~need~ were ~as~ ~pure~ and ~perfect~ ~as~ the ~light~ of ^Day. 

Once gone, ^What ~fruit~ would it ^Bear that God (or any other ~idealization~) did ^Return if it did ^Return in ~name~ only to a child ^Now ~lost~ ^Altogether from that ~light~?  A child did ^Depart into this ~depth~ in ~fact~ and I did ^Find you, this child, ~alone~.  So ^Now I ^Tell you that you are my child.  ^Come ^Now, and ^Together in a new ~light~ we may ^Seek our ^Perfect ^Day. 

Sometimes we must ^Live with ~abuse~ ^Long-term.  However, it is a ^Needless tragedy that is ~evidence~ of ^Blind ^Naughty ~evil~ and a ~deception~ that spans many generations in a ~community~ or ~family~.  Our ^Hate, ^Shame and even our ^Return to it may ^Nourish our ~survival~ or ~continuance~ of ~abuse~.  That's ^Always ^Okay ^Now, and ^Never ^Okay ~long-term~. 

Unless we ^Gain ^Sufficient ~talent~ to ^Yield ~strength~ to ~weakness~, even our ^BEST ~attempt~ to ^Overcome it will ^Leave its survivors ~empty~ and its perpetrators ~full~ even ~as~ we ^Believe that we or others are ~perfect~ to ^Manage ~abuse~ in our ~community~.  ^Hostility toward perpetrators has ^More than a ~chance~ to ^Cause ^Half-or-double the ~hostility~ to its survivors.  I ^Wish that equation were ~different~, too. 

^Consider also that ^When we ^See some ^Rare ~example~ of ^How ^Good a ^Fail is to ^Restore either survivors or perpetrators from ~abuse~, that ~fact~ does ^Tempt us to ^Consider that a ^Fail is a ^Perfect ~match~ to ^Heal from an ~abuse~ that we suffer or that we ^Commit.  It is a ^Perfect ~match~ except that we cannot even ^Start to ^Grow ^Properly while we ^Remain ~dead~ under the weight of ~abuse~.  ^Active ~abuse~, even though it might only ^Remain ^Active in our ^Winter ^Mind, is a ^Perfect ~block~ to the ^First ~step~ of ^Fail: we don't have an ~ability~ to ^Find or ^Grant ~forgiveness~ from ~guilt~, sometimes ^Long-term. 

We might ^Come to ^Believe ~as~ though a ^Fail can ^Always ^Overcome ~abuse~ ^Adequately.  However, its excellent ~opposition~ is by ~definition~ excellent to ^Sustain ~abuse~ for a ~season~.  So, we ^Want neither to ^Force nor ^Grow ourselves, others or our world often or ^Regularly.  We may ^Fruitfully ^Hope or ^Aim to ^Slowly ^Replace ~abuse~ with ~safety~ and an ~environment~ of ^Long-term ~love~.  That is far ^More ~important~ than (^Fruit-)^Less ~hope~ ~as~ we ^Try anyway against its ~presence~ and weight to ^Overcome it, to ^Shame it, to ^Hate it or to ^Minimize it in our ~life~. 

We ^Hope or ^Believe that ~thoughts~ of ~judgment~ or ~wisdom~ can ^Weave a ^Sure promise of ~fruit~ even though our ~actions~ only ^Show ~care~ ^Enough to ^Avoid its ~presence~.  This is ~evidence~ that ~evil~ does ^Confront us even ~as~ we ^Experience ~weakness~ within us.  We can't ^Bear the ^Full ~truth~ of it ^Now but that does not mean we are ~evil~ nor that we ^Deserve it.  We ^Still can ^Look for the ^Day of the ~gift~ to ^Overcome. 

It is ^Simple just to ^Believe that we have ~power~ ~alone~ or ^Together to ^Block its ~season~.  ^Tell me ^What ~results~ of that. 

Do you ^Still ^Think that we can just ^Watch for it ^Rarely or ^Regularly and then ^Find ~safety~ from it?  We ^Need to ^Know ourselves ^Better.  We would ^Take a ~chance~ to do it before we would ^Chance even ^Momentary (un-)~rest~ in ourselves.  We would ^Vomit or ^Cower rather than ^Watch for it or ^Receive the ~consequence~ of it.  We would ^Choose a little ~love~ and a little ~safety~ and ^Believe it a ~match~ to our ^Own ~idealization~, even ~as~ others ^Hide their ~commitment~ to their ^Own ^Maximum ~idealization~ ^Who might ^Likewise ^Believe that ^What they ^Hold ^Really is ~love~ and ~safety~ for others.  We ^Want it to ^Go or ^Depart from us ^Altogether without even an ^Equal ~commitment~ and ~intent~ (to ^Provide (and ^Prove!) ~love~ and ~safety~) ~as~ those ^Who might ^Never have had a ^Good ~example~ of ~love~ and ~safety~.  We ^Need to ^Know ourselves ^Better. 

^When we read about the ~cycle~ to ^Moderate our ~mind~ in the ^Restore ^Concept (~step~ 1M), we may ^Start to ^Imagine a ~picture~ of the ~flow~ ^Among ^Health, ^Strength, ^Immunity and ^Weakness. 

The ~figure~ above is an ~idealization~.  We might ^Try to ^Model and ^Measure our ^Whole ~self~ ~as~ in the ~figure~.  ^When we ^Flow these ^Four variables from left to right, it may ^Match our ~progress~ through time ^Among these variables.  And it may ^Be ~prudent~ to ^Show ^How we ^Progress from ~weakness~ to ~health~ to ~strength~ to ~immunity~ to ~weakness~. 

However, I ^Find that it would ^Be ^More accurate to ^Consider that the ~flow~ is through neither time nor the ~self~ but we ^Proceed in ~consequence~ (~cause~ to ~effect~) which is not ~found~ in our ~mind~ ~alone~.  That ~flow~ could ^Be within the ~self~, or it may only ^Model ^One ~part~ of us.  Or it may ^Model an ~organization~ or ~community~ ^Where we may ^Be only ^One ~part~. 

We may ^Take ~part~ in the ~cause~, the ~effect~, both or neither.  In that ~way~, we may not often ^Find this ~figure~ ~as~ a ~symbol~ of our ~self~, our ~community~ or an ~organization~.  Rather, every ~part~ of our ~life~, we are ~like~ a surfer ^Who may ^Prefer or ^Take ~interest~ in a ^Particular ~wave~.  We ^Gain ~experience~ ~as~ we ^Ride the ~top~ of a ~wave~.  We do so neither all at once nor in ^Equal ~measure~.  Our success or failure may ^Come ^When the ~wave~ is in ~accord~ to our ^Own ~expression~ within the greater ~whole~. 

For ~example~, my ~environment~ may ^Be ~one~ to ^Direct my ~attention~ to every ~weakness~ or ^Likewise my ~intent~ may ^Direct me ~as~ ^Such.  We may ^Infer by ^Such a ~cause~, an ~environment~ that may ^Foster ~health~ for ~weakness~ is a ^Good ~base~ of ~health~.  And if my ~community~ is ~full~ of ~strength~, that may ^Foster a ~MESS~ for ~strength~ is a ^Good ~base~ of ~mistakes~. 

So, just because this is ^How it ~works~ and ^How it should ^Work, that doesn't ^Imply that it will ^Likewise ^Work in ~fact~.  We may demand to ^Hold every ~part~ of every ~wave~ in ~common~.  And ^Still we may ^Find our ~voice~ has very little ~control~ of the ~whole~.  So ^Relax and ^Enjoy the ~ride~.  ^Let the ~water~ and the waves ^Come and ^Go and ^When the time is right, ^Take a ~chance~ and ^See ^Where it may ^Lead. 

With 140 concepts and about 1,000 metonyms in The Book of ^MESH it is ~prudent~ to ^Ask, Which ~definition~(s) are relevant for each ~metonym~? 

We could ^Quickly ^Discard any ~definition~ that does not ^Fit in at least ^One sentence ~context~ herein.  However, we would ^Discard some ~words~ in ~total~, for sometimes I add a ~metonym~ and ^Never ^Say it in the ~context~ of a sentence. 

We don't ^Really ^Need a ~law~ about it for our ~mind~ is a ^Better ~guide~.  But we don't ^Want to get ~lost~ in translation either and without any ~limit~ we ^End up ~exhausted~ ^Needlessly.  So I will ^Point out ^Two extremes to ^Be an ~example~ or ~guide~ about it. 

^Kind is the ^First ^Example ~metonym~.  By that word we might mean to ^Say it is a ~show~ of ~compassion~ or ~care~.  Also by that word we might mean to ^Say it is a ~category~.  It was a ~surprise~ to me at ^First but I ^Find ~harmony~ of both definitions under the ^Care ^Concept. 

The ^Care ^Concept has ^Similar ~parts~ ~as~ the ^Mind and the same ~organization~ too but it is ~different~ in that ^When we ^Care, we ^Exercise our ^Whole ~mind~ without its ^Full ~depth~ whereas ^When we ^Mind, we ^Exercise ~care~ with ~attention~ to ~depth~ or ~complexity~. 

^As we ^Give an item a ~category~ we ^Likewise ^Exercise our ^Whole ~mind~ without its ^Full ~depth~.  We ^Take ~care~ about its attributes in ~part~, in ~total~ or in ~full~.  We ^Need to ^Keep it ^Super ~simple~ in ~fact~, ^Like ^How we ^Care. 

It is a little ^More than ironic that we ^Need to ^Care to ^Arrive at a ~category~ about it yet sometimes we ^Hate a ~category~… so we ^Create a ~category~ of exclusion.  This is ~crazy~ ^Surely to ^Use ~care~ in (~self~-)~opposition~, but I also ^Think it would ^Be ~crazy~ and ^Lack ~regard~ to our ~limitations~ if we were to ^Try to ^Care about everything in ~balance~.  Therefore, maybe instead we could ^Decide to ^Recognize that it is not a ~category~ ^When we exclude items or ~one-another~ but it is that our ~care~ is ~exhausted~. 

We may ^Call it a ^Cute coincidence or ~miracle~ of the English language that ^Such an ~insight~ does ^Hide in ^Such a ^Common word.  However, there might ^Be something ^More here, for another word does ^Play the same ~way~: ^Such. 

My ^Second ^Example ~metonym~ to discuss is ~call~.  And there isn't much I ^Find to discuss at all.  The ~action~ to ^Name something; that is the only ~definition~ of ~call~ that I ^Care to ^Consider.  I ^See ^No value in ~context~ of ^MESH for its other definitions.  I add it ~as~ a ~metonym~ to ^Clarify and ^Show a ^STRONG ~example~ ^Where some definitions don't ^Really ^Matter to me for this ~context~.  ^Still, don't ^Let me (dis-)^Courage you about your ^Own opinions.  I am ^Glad anytime that we may ^See it ~as~ ~important~ and therefore, we ^Hold a ~talent~ to ^Make it ~work~ in our ~favor~.