^Beware of dog

In many chapters, I ^Present a ~collection~ of distortions.  But because they are necessary to ^Protect our ~mind~ ^Let us ^Practice to ^Call them modes ~instead~.  Every distortion is a mode of ~operation~. 

Cognitive distortions, conative distortions and affective distortions don't ^Define us and are not a ~problem~ with our ~mind~!  It is ~evil~ to ^Call it a delusion, ~psychosis~ or ~crazy~ ^When we only ^Intend to ^Show it ~as~ a ^Terrible state of ~mind~.  But that is ^Okay if it was our ~habit~ or if it is our ~habit~ to do so!  We can ^Overcome it. 

^When we ^Resist any mode, it may ^Sustain it and ^Create a ~divide~ against other modes, ~as~ though getting ~stuck~ in a ~mode~ were ~contagious~.  It is not because we or others are stubborn.  It is because each ^Active mode is ~one~ that will ^Remain ~active~.  It can ^Defend itself.  That is ^Really ~good~! 

My ~habit~ is to ^Avoid and thereby ^Refuse ^Excess ~empathy~ with modes of others.  That has the disadvantage that it may ^Cause me to get ~stuck~ ^Alone ^When I ^Need ~help~.  The advantage is ^More ~independence~ ^When I am capable and ~healthy~.  A ~search~ for ^More ~empathy~ has a converse advantage and disadvantage.  We ^Benefit from ~cooperation~, but we may get ~lost~ ~as~ we ^Avoid ~truth~.  If you also have either extreme ~as~ ~habit~ and got ~stuck~ or ~lost~ from a ~lack~ or ~excess~ of ~empathy~, don't ^Worry.  We have the ~power~ to ^Surrender and ^Heal from it. 

With ~experience~ we ^Learn we have many things that may ^Deceive us in some ~way~.  Those things may ^Cause our ~trust~ to ^Decrease.  ^Rather than ^Refuse ~trust~, we ^Want to ^Shift it, ^Transform its ~direction~ or ^Change ^When we ^Consider it ~acceptable~.  We ^Maximize ~evil~ ^When we can't ^Trust to ^Such an extent that we ^Refuse ~daily-self-care~ or any other ^Essential ~mode~. 

I've been there.  For ~empathy~, ^Imagine that we may ^Develop (mis-)~trust~ in ourselves due in ~part~ to dehydration yet ironically that (mis-)~trust~ may ^Cause us to get ~stuck~ ^Such that we can't ^Trust to ^Drink. 

^When we or others can't ^Trust our ~drink~ or our ~water~, our only ~focus~ should ^Be to (re-)^Establish that ~trust~.  ^When anything does ^Block our ~trust~, ~daily-self-care~, or both, it is a ~mess~ in ~progress~ and a crisis that ~demands~ our ~attention~ ^Now until we can ^Solve it ^Properly. 

^When anything does ^Challenge our ~trust~, divert it elsewhere ^When we can.  ^Rather than ^Refuse ~trust~ at any ~signal~ of ~opposition~, we can ^Cycle it elsewhere ~instead~.  And we can ^Explore ^Where it may ^Grow ~as~ ^Soon ~as~ we ^Feel it ^Decrease and ^Regularly. 

It is often a ~conflict~ of modes without ~attention~ to ^What is its ~cause~ that may ^Cause us to get ~stuck~.  If we don't ^Tend the underlying ~cause~ of a ~mode~ or if it is ~unknown~ to us then any ~effort~ to ^Force past it is reckless to our ~body~ and ~mind~. 

I ^Offer here ~empathy~ for my disdain in a ^Social ~belief~ or ~approach~ to ^Use pharmacology ^Regularly or ~as~ a ^First resort.  I ^Hope that we ^Use ~care~ in ~regard~ to our ~approach~ to mental ~health~.  In ~summary~, my personal ~feeling~ is, meals before ~medicine~.  So I ^Feel we ought not to ^Trust ~medicine~ ^Needlessly except to ^Fit and to ^Refresh. 

I have had ^More than ^One ^Wonderful therapists (^Individually and ^Together).  ^Let me ^Tell you about a conversation with ~one~ ^Such therapist ^Who had many years of ~experience~ and ~dedication~ to ^Help others ^Become ~healthy~. 

I ^Ask this therapist about a popular ~model~ of the ~mind~ that I ~found~ on a video streaming website.  And then they ^Quickly correct me in a professional ~show~ of ~chastisement~ to ^Say that not only does the ~mind~ ^Matter but ^How we ^Connect and ^Relate with ~one-another~ and our world.  Quite accidentally my ~question~ does ^Test them which ~test~ they ace.  And just ~as~ ^Quickly I ^See the ~truth~ of it and ^Agree with them about it so that I may also ^Pass the ~test~. 

So ^Now I may ^Ask you a ^Similar ~question~.  In ~regard~ to our mental ~health~, shouldn't our world ^Matter just ~as~ much ~as~ the ~earth~ within us? 

Many conversations and ^Life ~lessons~ ^Teach me ^Likewise.  We can't ^Separate the ~mind~ from its ~environment~ ~as~ we ^Measure it, so it is with ^Great ~care~ that we must ^Consider each ^Concept and ~mode~ in ~truth~ to its ~variety~ of ~application~.  And we must ^Grant agnostic allowances to the ~mind~ and situation that we may ^Apply and ^Match concepts just ~as~ ~well~ to ^One ~part~ of our ~mind~ in ^One situation ~as~ to our ^Whole ~mind~ in its ^General ~operation~.  And next we may ^Go from ^One ~mind~ to many minds in a ~variety~ of ~communication~ ^Between ourselves and then ^Among our ^Whole world. 

^One of the ^Great reasons for The Book of ^MESH is that ^No ~one~ is ~required~ to ^Trust these ~methods~ in ~full~.  ^Rather we may ^Trust for its ^Own sake to ^See ^What ~develops~.  And we can ^Try for ourselves at our ^Own ~pace~ to ^Find the ~fruit~ of ~MESH~. 

Ultimately, I ^Hope to ^Maximize our ~agency~ in ~regard~ to every ^Good ~approach~.  Some of us ^Want a practitioner to ^Help us to ^Talk about it, ^Take ~medicine~ or both.  These may ^Be a ^Significant ~part~ of our personal recipe to ^Heal.  That is ^Okay! 

Others are ~avoidant~ of some of these ~methods~.  Some are ^Like me and ^Prefer (~self~-)~help~ only.  And that is ^Okay too! 

In ~context~ of our ~journey~ for mental ~health~, few things have done ^More to ^Inspire me than to ^See its practitioners ^Use ^Good ~methods~ on behalf of their patients: myself and others included.  We'll ^Make it ^One ~day~.  I ^Know it! 

Whatever our ~approach~ to our mental ~health~, once we ^Commit to ^Try, I ^Suspect that we may ^Be half ~way~ through the ~war~ already.  And from that ^First half, we may ^Find ~opportunities~ ^Now to ^Receive a ^Half-or-double ~portion~. 

We can ^Still ^Be ^Grateful despite ^Needless suffering.  Years of ^Needless suffering can ^Become suffering with ~purpose~, even many years after the ~fact~.  It does!  Isn't that ~wonderful~?  It is, once we can ^Find and ^Make the ~change~.  I ^Know it.  It is not about any supreme success but it is our ~chance~ to ^Find remarkable healing and to ^Be our ^Best ~self~. 

^Now ~as~ we ^Teach ourselves about modes, ^Please ^Remember this ^One thing.  Don't put ourselves or others in a mode of ~force~ or ~judgment~ against ~one-another~ and/or against any modes in ourselves and others.  If we are in ~such~ a ~mode~ then we can't ^Escape it except in a ^Cruel manner.  ^Like the ~force~ of gravity it pulls others into a ^Similar ~trap~. 

^Gladly we may ^Worry and ^Find ~sorrow~ from it because it is a tragedy and that ^Fall may ^Be our ~chance~ to ^Start to ^Fail toward a ^Better ~way~. 

So if we ^See ~judgment~ upon ~one-another~ elsewhere we ^Want to ^Separate ourselves from it for our ~safety~.  But it is ~prudent~ that we ^Stop and ^Look with ~care~.  In ^Maximum ~force~ or ~judgment~ I ^Suspect only a ^Perfect ^Fail is ~sufficient~.  We may ^Hope for a ~miracle~ upon our ~mind~, another fortunate ^Lucky ~event~, or something ^Like it that could ^Undo our heaviest mode of ~force~ or ~judgment~. 

My ^Default mode of ^Progress in my ^Daily ~life~ is ~kind~ of ^Like (un-)~share~, and it is very distorted.  I ^Fight too ~hard~ to ^Connect because of its (mis-)~match~ to my ^Default mode of ^Change: for in ~frustration~ I often ^Lack ~presence~ with my audience.  I would ^Rather ^Hide except that also is ~good~ because it may ^Give me ^Better ~focus~ ~as~ I ^Write.  For sake of my ~health~, I ^Need not ^Hate myself for that.  ^Rather I may ^Choose to ^Believe in ~honesty~ that it is ~adorable~. 

Pick a page in The Book of ^MESH.  Do you ^See a mode?  ^Good.  Or pick out a page of your ~journal~ and ^Name a ^Concept.  Or perhaps you could ^Express the object ~form~ of any verb.  Whatever the mode you ^Find here or elsewhere, it is likely ^Near the root of current ^Needless suffering for some of us.  But that same mode is ^Surely also key to ^Alleviate ^Needless suffering for another.  And a ~cycle~ of ~virtue~ ^Between ^Humility and ^Fail may ^Grant us ~power~ to ^Navigate all of our distortions even during our worst times of ~weakness~. 

I have lived a while through some ^Hard times, but my ^First hospitalization and ensuing ~psychosis~ was ^Far ^More traumatic to me than anything else in my ~memories~.  I was already dehydrated and starving, and that hospital ~commitment~ added to it nakedness, ~lack~ of ~privacy~ and being refused virtually every other ~comfort~ that was once in my ~life~.  That suffering was even worse than the ~cause~, a trauma from ^Five months before it which ^Momentary trauma put me down ~hard~ onto the worst ~part~ of my ~mind~'s ~path~. 

^Now that I ^Know, you ^Better ^Believe that I ^Hold to the ^Fail ^Concept ^Like my only ^Real and ^True ~friend~.  ^Like nothing else.  And you ^Better ^Understand that my ~focus~ is to ^Chastise those ^Who are ~cruel~ or ^Who ^Deceive themselves to ^Think that it is ~good~ to ^Offer ~judgment~ or ~chastisement~ without ~love~. 

Although it is nice to have a diagnosis ^Arrive ^Like an ongoing ~advocate~ for my ^Own suffering or for that of others, that may ^Offend or ^Become us to ^Receive or ^Take it ~as~ an excuse which ~hurt~ or ~intent~ is ~found~ to ^Oppose ~MESH~.  Due to the strings that the modes of modern ~medicine~ and society ^Attach to us, I ^Think it is ^Far ~better~ that we can ^Look at the ~mess~ without the ~complexity~ of a diagnosis. 

Today, we ^Still ^Fear it and it may ^Come ~as~ a label of (dys-)~function~.  ^As we ^Run from it or toward it, we ^Tend to ^Replace ^One ~complexity~ with another ~one~. 

Yet in ~truth~, to ^Heal, we should ^Recognize our ^Needless suffering ~as~ ~evidence~ of a ^Beautiful ~mind~ and a ~mind~ ^Full of ~function~.  And then with our ^Honest ~interest~ in the ^Full ~beauty~ of its modes we may ^Loom to ^Repair or ^Improve any struggle ^Rather than jump on the ~train~ of (dys-)~function~ in ~hope~ that the next station is ~different~. 

The dog on the porch awakes.  And his bark is so ~loud~ that it is heard to the ~top~ of the mountain!  He does ponder, Are they in ~conflict~ about it once and yet?  He does ^Break The Book of ^MESH in pieces ~as~ though it were ~food~.  He is in ~aim~ to ^Tell all others to ^Vomit it up, for ~food~ he does dearly ^Need, and that, he does (^Self-)^Sacrifice for sake of others ^Who can't ^Bear the ~medicine~ of it.  This he does, for God does ^Confess to his dog that it would ^Be ~hard~ to do, and the dog does so ^Quickly on the faintest whisper that it may have ^Come to another ~as~ ~evil~.  The dog does mourn his ~friend~: a lion ^Now bruised and beaten, covered in mange and held in chains.  ^Go dog, ^Go, for you did ^Fail to ^Save the lion from his chains, so ^Fail this ~effort~ ~straight~ away. 

In detail of ~communication~, ~as~ a delusion given to the dog and then powered by God.  Although the dog must ^Go, God did ^Well, for somehow He does ^Own every word ^Still. 

In ~terror~ the dog does ^Awake from the only ~space~ ~still~ sacred to him just defiled.  ^No ~space~ of sacred ~comfort~ may ^Remain.  It is a couch of divine ~rest~ ^No ^More.  It is in ^Gross violation of his ~body~ and ~mind~.  It is the most ^Rude ~kind~ of ~harm~ that does ^Come to ^Ridicule an ^Obedient ~mind~.  The violation ~as~ a living nightmare does ^Cause a ~lack~ of ~breath~ from ~sleep~ which does roil, alarm and then explode into a ^Loud ~shout~ of awakening. 

At the ~point~ of alarm, the extremity of the pain of it does cross into his ~awareness~ to ^Feel to ^Identify his assailant from before ~words~ had definitions. He does ^Again ^Surrender that ~knowledge~ being unable to ^Bear it in the ~sense~ that it was ~one~ ^Like ~family~.  The ^Unknown assailant is almost revealed within his ~mind~. 

In the ^Full energy of awakening, he does ^Shout ^No! over and over and then does scream in pain at each ~breath~, horribly until ~exhausted~ and ~faint~.  He does howl until out of ~breath~ and ^Still in pain, for he felt it ~as~ ^More than a nightmare for it was ~as~ ~memories~ of an ~attack~ long ago.  Although that ~knowledge~ he does ^Refuse, he is in a panic to ^Seek its ~cause~ ^Again.  In ~anger~ he does leap up to accuse all he does ^Trust and each in ~turn~ ~as~ a ^Desperate ~test~ to ^Detect any secret ~hostility~ that his ~lack~ does ^Inwardly ^Manifest.  ^No ~suspect~ is ~found~ and none does rightly ^Confess so the assailant does ^Still ^Remain ~unknown~. 

For many days therefrom, his ~voice~ is raspy and hoarse.  He does shave himself bald in ~depth~ of ~sorrow~ and ~shame~.  The dog has an ^Irrepressible ~temptation~ to accuse at God's ^Own throne.  Somehow God in foresight did whisper long ago ^What may have stopped the dog from this ~hostility~.  Nonetheless recently, neither God nor man can ^Find the dog at ~peace~ from it and in ^Good ~feelings~ of ~grace~. 

The strangest thing is that we most ^Properly ^Discern mental ~illness~ by a ~merge~ of every ~view~ we ^See in sufferers and others.  ^Where it may ^Appear that all others are ~blind~ or ~crazy~ it means that we are the primary sufferer, and yet it may ^Appear to ^Point ~outward~ to the ~problem~.  ^What does that mean?  ^Where it may ^Appear only ~one~ is ~crazy~ or otherwise in ~emotional-failure~, we ^See it ~as~ a ~weakness~ in those ^Who ^Appear ~as~ ~such~.  Neither clue of ~direction~ is wrong, so the ~problem~ is not in ourselves or others.  ^Rather it is ^Between ourselves and, others or our world.  Every ~relation~ to the primary sufferer is ~as~ a ~cause~ for it is ~strength~ and ~weakness~ in ~disparity~.  That (mis-)~match~ could ^Be in ~relation~ to ourselves, to others, to our world or all of the above. 

But also ^Irrespective of ^Where the ~problem~ is, we don't ^See the ~strength~ that could ^Hide in us: a ^Large ^Blind spot in others with ^Ample ~strength~ and a ^Small ^Blind spot ~as~ we ^Judge within ourselves ~as~ primary sufferers.  We are ~exhausted~ and ^No ~strength~ around us will ^Yield.  And we are so ~brave~ to ^Continue to ^Work while ~faint~ in our ~heart~.  We ourselves and others ^Want to ^Believe that our ~tears~ have ^No magic ~power~ to ^Heal and ^Help.  They do have ~power~ actually and often, however, we may have had a ~lesson~ that did ^Prove otherwise wrongly by the ~gift~ of ~fear~ of ~emotion~.  By ~doubt~ our ~tears~ had ^No ~power~, and so today we don't ^Sorrow although ~sad~ for ourselves or others. 

Yet, the ^Biggest distortion might not ^Be in ourselves ~as~ primary sufferers, but in others in our ~life~ ^Who also suffer in ~relation~ to our suffering ^Who don't ^Notice ~emotion~ (theirs and ours) ^Who can't ^Stop their ~strength~ to ^Give a ^Proper ~look~ at our pain ^Who (impatiently-)^Help.  They ^Seek to ^Give ~knowledge~ without ^Truth, ~awareness~ without the ~grace~ to ^Be ^Good, ~community~ without ~respect~ for ^Who we are, and ~wisdom~ without a ^Pure ~aim~ to ^Love us.  For their ~strength~ may ^Hide both the pain of it that may ^Magnify their ~empathy~, and their ~sense~ of ~compassion~ to the primary sufferer. 

In ~fact~, we are all primary sufferers to varying degrees and we have a ~variety~ of ~strength~ and ~weakness~ that can ^Change in a ~moment~!  So may we ^Rather ^Accept ~one-another~.  May we ^Be ~one~ in ~strength~ or ~weakness~ in ourselves.  May we ^Find ~peace~ ^Among ourselves, others or our world. 

We ^Minimize ~disparity~ ^When we ^Help to ^Remove ~strength~: ^First in ourselves, next in ~relation~ to others, and ^Last in ~connection~ to our world.  Although primary and secondary sufferers are at the ~source~, ^Remember, they are not the ~cause~.  Any ~cause~ of ^Needless suffering may ^Remain ~unknown~ until we have had much time to ^Heal in a ^Safe ~environment~ that may ^Foster ~love~. 

In that ~day~ of restoration the sufferer will ^Recover.  And those ^Who ^Call others the ~cause~ and ^Call themselves ^Helpful ^Who ^Persist to ^Fix their ~family~ or ~community~ ^Who ^Persist to ^Ignore the pain's ~message~ may ^Find a ~time-and-place~ to ponder it. 

May we all ^Feel it ^Together in ~empathy~ ^Rather than in ~complement~ against ~one-another~.  And then without ~complement~, we may not ^Function which is ~sad~, but ^Gladly we may ^Heal.  So we will ^Again ^Function, but ^Together.  So ^Yes, it ~works~.  ^Turtles all the ~way~ down. 

The dog on the porch is so ^Full from ~hope~ in his ~effort~ to ^Create, ^Write and ^Refine The Book of ^MESH in his ~belief~ of the ^Great ~good~ to ^Give ~love~ to ~one-another~ and to ^Help a world in ~need~.  In the ~mind~ of the dog, a ~plan~ does ^Tempt to ^Embrace him: to ^Believe himself a ^Naughty dog because of his ~aim~ to ^Take from the ~home~ of his porch all of the ^Beautiful treasure in it.  The dog does ^Obtain to ^Hold ^Eight ^Principal modes ~as~ his ^Own, ~as~ ^Eight treasures robbed from the ~fortress~ of his ~master~.  Is this the secret and ~privacy~ of God ^Now robbed?  ^Why does the dog ^Stay?  Is it ~good~ for the dog to ^Protect the lion at ^Such cost? 

Although it is a heavy burden for a ^Loyal dog to ^Feel thusly by any ~measure~, it doesn't ^Show itself a ~problem~ to the dog whose ~example~ is to ^Hold ~shame~ so ^Well in ~fullness~ ~long-term~.  So, it is ^No ~worry~ and ^No ~problem~ at all in the ~heart~ of the dog, although a ~problem~ by every ~measure~.  The dog has ~tenderness~ to ^Know the ~talent~ of the lion to ^Bear the ~shame~ of mange and hunger, and that does ^Tell him that for sake of the lion, the dog may ^Sacrifice in ~respect~ ^Likewise. 

Then the dog hears in a whisper in a ~dream~, I am nine. 

A ~voice~ to ^Speak ~as~ though the dog has ~need~ of ~comfort~ from this ~shame~. 

A ~voice~ to ^Speak ~as~ though the ~worry~ were a ^Great burden. 

The dog has ^No ^Conscious weight from his ~guilt~.  Were it not for a ^Subconscious ~relief~, the dog might have been ~confused~. 

A ~voice~ to whisper yet to ^Sing out with ~clarity~ of a bell by its ~peace~. 

That same night a ^Fat man does ^Go to ^Run and ^Start to ^Talk to the dog.  The dog runs along side God ^Who does ^Appear ~as~ a Buddha on ^Spring Gully, with the Hindu temple to the ~right~, the dog to the ~left~, and the Buddha in ~between~.  And to the ~right~ of the gully they ^Proceed north and to the ~home~ of the dog.  The ~choice~ of the dog, ^Yes, is to ^Run ^Together along side Buddha to ^Listen by ~study~ of a most welcome, calm and ^Friendly ~face~.  The ^True ~face~ of a ~buddy~.  Although they ^Go ^Quickly, none are ~exhausted~.  Although the gully is wet and deep and the ~bridge~ ~home~ does ^Loom ahead, they cross the gully ^Together before the ~bridge~, ~as~ though to ^Run ~straight~ over the gully in the ~sky~.  Their ^Impossible ~path~ through the ~air~ does ^Appear ~as~ a meadow, ^Full from the ~beauty~ of every ~flower~ that did ^Encircle them. 

After this ~journey~ with his ~buddy~, the dog is ^No longer ^Alone so the ~dark~ does ^Come to his ~eyes~ to ^Awake him so that he may ^See ^Again ~as~ though ~blind~.  The dog, ^Now ~as~ a man, lays in bed to ponder the ~dream~ and the ~voice~ ^Who does ^Magnify itself to ^Speak. 

Is this the dog ^Who may ^Seek to ^Save by his ~talent~ to ^Take all in the ~fortress~ of his ~master~?  His ~shame~ does ^Depart by a ~grace~ that ~found~ its ~way~ to ^Come to the dog to ^Overcome it.  Although the dog may ^See that God is ~as~ a man in poverty ^Now robbed of all by the dog, God does ^Remain ~as~ a treasure and ~loyal~. 

That ^Last treasure, God, may ^Give Himself in ~grace~ to the dog's poverty even ~as~ His ~own~. 

And the dog, for ^Three days and ^Three nights the sun's ~path~ to ^Depart brings torment of devils and the sun's ~turn~ to ^Return gives ~peace~ for a half night also.  On that ^Last night's ~peace~, the dog sees in a waking ~dream~, which is to ^Say, a vision.  And it is a vision of ^Perfect ^Peace. 

^Fear not, says the dog, with a ~nudge~ to the onlooker. 

And the dog sees the image of ^Three, each a ~PLR~.  He sees ~one~ whom he knows to ^Love, and ^Two others whose exact ~figure~ the vision withholds from him.  And the dog sees that these ^Three ^Go on to their ^Great glory ~as~ do we all, yet they ^Go ^Together ~as~ friends do, and the beloved and known ~one~ does ^Go in ~lead~. 

^Nudge. 

After that time, the dog sees the lion, ~as~ a man in ^Full ~beauty~ and ~form~.  And the lion comes forth to ^Nourish in ^Full ~clothes~ abundantly frilled ~as~ ~one~ restored and to ^Restore.  And he wears ^No ~smile~ yet it was the ~grace~ of ~peace~ upon his ~face~.  And he is broadly shouldered in majesty and ~appearance~ of a ^Strong and ^Healthy lion.  It is ~as~ ~one~ ^Who shall ^Receive the ~fullness~ of the stature of Christ. 

The dog does ^Awake to a little lion, ~as~ it were, in ~quiet~ on his lap to ponder this ~dream~ in ~patience~ until his pet cat does ^Depart.  In ~aim~ to ^Live the dog plans to ^Keep the vision but his ~intuition~ constrains him otherwise, so it is ^Now ~found~ here.  The dog is in ~shame~ to ^Share so boldly ^Such mild ~sweetness~ of ~grace~ to his ~heart~.  Yet the dog is ^Obedient in ~sorrow~ and ~tears~.  But the dog is neither ~sorry~ nor ~afraid~ in the ~sense~ that he is ~glad~ for the ~hope~ of the lion to ^Recover.  For in that vision the dog can ^See that the lion has ^Hold of a dog with relish in ~aim~ to ^Eat. 

Or maybe it was chili?  It ^Better ^Be Texas chili.  Or a Coney Island dog?  The dog sees in his ~imagination~ a red neon sign and a ~name~ he can't read and doesn't ^Know and does ^Smell that ^Sick yet ^Sweet ~meat~ in ~anticipation~ to ^Share a meal with the lion tonight.  Those are some ^Good dogs. 

That night, the dog ~found~ that red neon sign, and does ^Sit ^Together with the lion to ^Eat some Chicago dogs.  Those are some ^Good hot dogs. 

^Nudge. 

^Consent is the ~part~ of our ~agency~ that we may have in ~common~ to ~one-another~.  It is only ever ~mutual~ and we ^Always ^Use it to ^Say just ^One thing in a world that doesn't ^Obtain ~care~ for itself which is a world of ~abuse~.  ^Where ^Two or ^Three ^Individually ^Decide on ^One thing in ~common~, it is ~consent~.  ^Remain to ^Fix upon our (20.5) ^Agency's target. 

A child can't ^Decide ^When or ^Where they ^Sleep and many other things, so they ^Hold ^No ~consent~ nor ~responsibility~ for that.  Childhood is a time to ^Establish ~agency~ that their ~life~ and world of ~care~ may ^Come ^Together ^How they ^Decide it. 

^Likewise, can we ^Consent to ^Rest ^When ~exhausted~?  It may ^Happen to ^Come, but it was ^Never ~consent~.  I ^Hope and pray you ponder every ~metonym~ of this ^Concept, that you ^Never ^Go ^Together yet without its ^Good ~power~. 

^Consider that we have ^No ~consent~ to ^Give others any ~trouble~: ^When any has ~trouble~ to ^Startle, ^Respond, ^Decide, ^Front, ^End, ^Yes, ^No, if it is your ^Own ~family~, …  We can't ^Consent to ~trouble~.  ^Never do anything ^Together that should ^Force our ~need~ for it. 

Did you all ^Forget to ^Go ^Look in the ~mirror~?  I ^Love ^What I ^See ~as~ I ^Reflect on you.  And me.  And this ~earth~. 

^Why do you not also ^Feel ^Likewise its ~joy~?  Do you ^Really ^Think God did not ^Make you ~perfect~?  That is ^What I ^See. 

Can you ^Really ^Say ^Now that I am ~blind~ about myself and every other ~soul~ except perhaps you or another ^Who you ^Favor or ^Praise?  Am I ~crazy~? 

^No.  The ~truth~ is this ^Whole world… is so easy to ^Forgive in ^One ~step~.  I will ^Hold that ~anger~ in and ^Never ^Refuse it ~as~ I ^Avoid all of its ~excess~ of ~appearance~. 

Forever my children. 

^Well, I ^Know that God did ^Make us all ~perfect~.  ^Accept to ^Follow my ~example~ of ~love~ for all in my ^Perfect ~honesty~ of ~heart~ or you may have my ~anger~ about it ^Always. 

^Now, there it is.  ^Happiness is within, for my ~anger~ has ^Become the ~perfection~ of ~truth~.  Yours can ^Be too.  ^Well, we'll ^See. 

This ~week~ I, the dog, ^Dream ^Again and ^See the ~figure~ of ~three~ ~as~ before.  And I ^See each ~face~ ^Now in ~clarity~.  The ~two~ new faces ^Appear very ~sick~ and ^Appear ~near~ to ~dead~.  I ^Know them all and I ^Love them all very much. 

The ^First ~two~ and the ^Last ~one~ to ^Counsel are those ^Who I ^See.  And God does ^Tell me neither to ^Share nor ^Hide this new ~dream~.  However, much ^Later I ^Choose to ^Share in ~chance~ that it may ^Teach others for it is only a ^Small ~sacrifice~ to myself to do so. 

I ^Believe in God and I ^Believe that he does ^Speak to me ^Daily to ^Help me to ^Develop and ^Write this ~work~.  And yet I ^Hope you ^Take The Book of ^MESH ~as~ ~what-it-is~.  From the very ~start~, I did ^Always ^Aim to ^Give it in a ~spirit~ to ^Accept any ~belief~ or ~doubt~ that we or others may ^Hold ^Now ~as~ ^Good ^Enough ^Now.  After all, that is exactly ~what-it-is~. 

I ^Accept that you may ^Find or ^Suspect any ~doubt~ or ~belief~ in God to ^Be a distortion of the ~mind~.  That's ^Okay!  For myself, ^When I ^Consider ~one~ or the other ~as~ ~true~, I would ^Say that my ^Own ~experience~ of God could neither ^Come from my ^Subconscious nor ^Conscious ~mind~ only.  So that would ^Imply that an ~idealization~ of God is ~as~ a ~part~ in ~between~.  So in ~combination~ with the ~evidence~ of my ^Own ~experience~ I ^Find that God is a ~voice~ of ^Prudent ~insight~ and a ^Humble ~example~ to ^Teach that can ^Speak to me in my ~weakness~ or ~humility~.  And God can ^Give ~comfort~ to my ~sorrow~.  Because it is a ~voice~ of ~insight~ and ~awareness~ that may ^Encourage and ^Work with me for ^Good, I ^Believe it is God.  Furthermore I ^Think that it is ^Okay for others to ^Believe or ^Doubt it.  And I neither ^Contend with others nor ^Impose upon any others to ^Believe ^Likewise.  Nor has God ~required~ that of me ~as~ I ^Develop this ~work~. 

And ^Why should God do that?  By ~jealousy~?  ^Abuse may ^Take God or any other ^Beautiful ~knowledge~ or ~idealization~ from us even though we did ^Choose that to ^Be a ~part~ of ~life~.  It may ^Still ^Depart by ~force~ even though it were our ~desire~ to ^Beautify and ^Accept ourselves, others and our world around us which ~desire~ or ~need~ were ~as~ ~pure~ and ~perfect~ ~as~ the ~light~ of ~day~. 

Once gone, ^What ~fruit~ would it ^Bear that God (or another ~idealization~) did ^Return if it did ^Return in ~name~ only to a child ^Now ~lost~ ^Altogether from that ~light~?  In ~fact~, a child did ^Depart into this ~depth~ of ~dark~ and I did ^Find you, this child ^Alone.  So ^Now I ^Tell you that you are my child.  ^Come ^Now, and ^Together in a new ~light~ we may ^Seek our ^Perfect ~day~. 

Sometimes we must ^Live with ~abuse~ ^Long-term.  However, it is a ^Needless tragedy that is ~evidence~ of ^Blind ^Naughty ~evil~ and a ~deception~ that spans many generations in a ~community~ or ~family~.  Our ~hate~, ~shame~ and even our ~return~ to it may ^Nourish either our ~survival~ or our ~continuance~ of ~abuse~.  That's ^Always ^Okay ^Now, and ^Never ^Okay ~long-term~. 

Unless we ^Gain ^Sufficient ~talent~ to ^Yield ~strength~ to ~weakness~, even our ^Best ~attempt~ to ^Overcome it will ^Leave its survivors ~empty~ and its perpetrators ~full~ even ~as~ we ^Believe that we or others are ~perfect~ to ^Manage ~abuse~ in our ~community~.  ^Hostility toward perpetrators has ^More than a ~chance~ to ^Cause ^Half-or-double the ~hostility~ to its survivors.  I ^Wish that equation were ~different~, too. 

^Consider also that ^When we ^See some ^Rare ~example~ of ^How ^Good a ^Fail is to ^Restore either survivors or perpetrators from ~abuse~, that ~fact~ does ^Tempt us to ^Consider that a ^Fail is a ^Perfect ~match~ to ^Heal from an ~abuse~ that we suffer or that we ^Commit.  It is a ^Perfect ~match~ except that we can't even ^Start to ^Grow ^Properly while we ^Remain ~dead~ under the weight of ~abuse~.  ^Active ~abuse~, even though it might only ^Remain ~active~ in our ^Winter ~mind~, is a ^Perfect ~block~ to the ^First ~steps~ of ^Fail: we don't have an ~ability~ to ^Find or ^Grant ~forgiveness~ from ~guilt~; sometimes ^Long-term. 

We might ^Come to ^Believe ~as~ though a ^Fail can ^Always ^Overcome ~abuse~ ^Adequately.  However, its excellent ~opposition~ is by ~definition~ excellent to ^Sustain ~abuse~ for a ~season~.  So, we ^Want neither to ^Force nor ^Grow ourselves, others or our world often or ^Regularly.  We may ^Fruitfully ^Hope or ^Aim to ^Slowly ^Replace ~abuse~ with ~safety~ and an ~environment~ of ^Long-term ~love~.  That is ^Far ^More ~important~ than (^Fruit-)^Less ~hope~ ~as~ we ^Try anyway against its ~presence~ and weight to ^Overcome it, to ^Shame it, to ^Hate it or to ^Minimize it in our ~life~. 

We ^Hope or ^Believe that ~thoughts~ of ~judgment~ or ~wisdom~ can ^Weave a ^Sure promise of ~fruit~ even though our ~actions~ only ^Show ~care~ ^Enough to ^Avoid its ~presence~.  This is ~evidence~ that ~evil~ does ^Confront us even ~as~ we ^Experience ~weakness~ within us.  We can't ^Bear the ^Full ~truth~ of it ^Now but that does not mean we are ~evil~ nor that we ^Deserve it.  We ^Still can ^Look for the ~day~ of the ~gift~ to ^Overcome. 

It is ^Simple just to ^Believe that we have ~power~ ^Alone or ^Together to ^Block its ~season~.  ^Tell me ^What ~results~ of that. 

Do you ^Still ^Think that we can just ^Watch for it ^Rarely or ^Regularly and then ^Find ~safety~ from it?  We ^Need to ^Know ourselves ^Better. 

We would ^Take a ~chance~ to do it before we would ^Chance even ^Momentary (un-)~rest~ in ourselves.  We would ^Vomit or ^Cower ^Rather than ^Notice it.  We would ^Impose it ~as~ a ~mechanism~ to ^Watch for it elsewhere ^Rather than ^Sorrow on the ~chance~ we might ^Restore others from it.  We would ^Enjoy to ^Trap others in ^Maximum ~consequence~ of it ^Rather than ^Receive the ~consequence~ of it ourselves.  We would ^Choose a little ~love~ and a little ~safety~ and ^Believe it a ~match~ to our ^Own ~idealization~, even ~as~ others ^Hide their ~commitment~ to their ^Own ^Maximum ~idealization~ ^Who might ^Likewise ^Believe that ^What they ^Hold ^Really is ~love~ and ~safety~ for others.  We ^Want it to ^Go or ^Depart from us ^Altogether without even an ^Equal ~commitment~ and ~intent~.  We have ^Less ~commitment~ and ~intent~ to ^Provide (and ^Prove!) ~love~ and ~safety~ than those ^Who ^Still ^Encourage it. 

^When we read about the ~cycle~ to ^Moderate our ~mind~ in the ^Restore ^Concept (~step~ 1M), we may ^Start to ^Imagine a ~picture~ of the ~flow~ ^Among ~health~, ~strength~, ~immunity~ and ~weakness~. 

The ~figure~ above is an ~idealization~.  We might ^Try to ^Model and ^Measure our ^Whole ~self~ ~as~ in the ~figure~.  ^When we ^Flow these ^Four variables from ~left~ to ~right~, it may ^Match our ~progress~ through time ^Among these variables.  And it may ^Be ~prudent~ to ^Show ^How we ^Progress from ~weakness~ to ~health~ to ~strength~ to ~immunity~ to ~weakness~. 

However, I ^Find that it would ^Be ^More accurate to ^Consider that the ~flow~ is through neither time nor the ~self~ but we ^Proceed in ~consequence~ (~cause~ to ~effect~) which is not ~found~ only in our ~mind~.  That ~flow~ could ^Be within the ~self~, or it may only ^Model ^One ~part~ of us.  Or it may ^Model an ~organization~ or ~community~ ^Where we may ^Be only ^One ~part~. 

We may ^Take ~part~ in the ~cause~, the ~effect~, both or neither.  In that ~way~, we may not often ^Find this ~figure~ ~as~ a ~symbol~ of our ~self~, our ~community~ or an ~organization~.  ^Rather, every ~part~ of our ~life~, we are ~like~ a surfer ^Who may ^Prefer or ^Take ~interest~ in a ^Particular ~wave~.  We ^Gain ~experience~ ~as~ we ^Ride the ~top~ of a ~wave~.  We do so neither all at once nor in ^Equal ~measure~.  Our success or failure may ^Come ^When the ~wave~ is in ~accord~ to our ^Own ~expression~ within the greater ~whole~. 

For ~example~, my ~environment~ may ^Be ~one~ to ^Direct my ~attention~ to every ~weakness~ or ^Likewise my ~intent~ may ^Direct me ~as~ ^Such.  We may ^Infer by ^Such a ~cause~, an ~environment~ that may ^Foster ~health~ for ~weakness~ is a ^Good ~base~ of ~health~.  And if my ~community~ is ~full~ of ~strength~, that may ^Foster a ~mess~ for ~strength~ is a ^Good ~base~ of ~mistakes~. 

So, just because this is ^How it ~works~ and ^How it should ^Work, that doesn't ^Imply that it will ^Likewise ^Work in ~fact~.  We may demand to ^Hold every ~part~ of every ~wave~ in ~common~.  And ^Still we may ^Find our ~voice~ has very little ~control~ of the ~whole~.  So ^Relax and ^Enjoy the ~ride~.  ^Let the ~water~ and the waves ^Come and ^Go and ^When the time is ~right~, ^Take a ~chance~ and ^See ^Where it may ^Lead. 

With 140 concepts and about 1,000 metonyms in The Book of ^MESH it is ~prudent~ to ^Ask, Which ~definition~(s) are relevant for each ~metonym~? 

We could ^Quickly ^Discard any ~definition~ that does not ^Fit in at least ^One sentence ~context~ herein.  However, we would ^Discard some ~words~ in ~total~, for sometimes I add a ~metonym~ and ^Never ^Say it in the ~context~ of a sentence. 

We don't ^Really ^Need a ~law~ about it for our ~mind~ is a ^Better ~guide~.  But we don't ^Want to get ~lost~ in translation either and without any ~limit~ we ^End up ~exhausted~ ^Needlessly.  So I will ^Point out ^Two extremes to ^Be an ~example~ or ~guide~ about it. 

^Kind is the ^First ^Example ~metonym~.  By that word we might mean to ^Say it is a ~show~ of ~compassion~ or ~care~.  Also by that word we might mean to ^Say it is a ~category~.  It was a ~surprise~ to me at ^First but I ^Find ~harmony~ of both definitions under the ^Care ^Concept. 

The ^Care ^Concept has ^Similar ~parts~ ~as~ the ~mind~ and the same ~organization~ too but it is ~different~ in that ^When we ^Care, we ^Exercise our ^Whole ~mind~ without its ^Full ~depth~ whereas ^When we ^Mind, we ^Exercise ~care~ with ~attention~ to ~depth~ or ~complexity~. 

^As we ^Give an item a ~category~ we ^Likewise ^Exercise our ^Whole ~mind~ without its ^Full ~depth~.  We ^Take ~care~ about its attributes in ~part~, in ~total~ or in ~full~.  We ^Need to ^Keep It ^Super ^Simple in ~fact~, ^Like ^How we ^Care. 

We may ^Call it a ^Cute coincidence or ~miracle~ of the English language that ^Such an ~insight~ does ^Hide in ^Such a ^Common word.  However, there might ^Be something ^More here, for another word does ^Play the same ~way~: ^Such. 

My ^Second ^Example ~metonym~ to discuss is ~call~.  And there isn't much I ^Find to discuss at all.  The ~action~ to ^Name something; that is the only ~definition~ of ~call~ that I ^Care to ^Consider.  I ^See ^No value in ~context~ of The Book of ^MESH for its other definitions.  I add it ~as~ a ~metonym~ to ^Clarify and ^Show a ^Strong ~example~ ^Where some definitions don't ^Really ^Matter to me for this ~context~.  ^Still, don't ^Let me (dis-)^Courage you about your ^Own opinions.  I am ^Glad anytime that we may ^See it ~as~ ~important~ and therefore, we ^Hold a ~talent~ to ^Make it ~work~ in our ~favor~. 

Yesterday afternoon, I, the dog, ^Sit outside on my porch for sake of my ^Own ~comfort~ and ~hygiene~.  And a bird does ^Come to ^Join me and ^Sing.  And it is a ^Sad melody.  And I ^Know to ^Sit with another in their ~sorrow~ and not ^Go.  So we ^Sit ^Together in ~quiet~ for ^Less than an ~hour~.  After a ~wait~ I hear it ^Sing the same ~song~ but ^Now it is not melancholy, but ~joy~. 

And so we ^See a ^Sad bird in ~presence~ of a ~buddy~ may ^Find its ~heart~ ^Turn to ~joy~.  Although to ^Stay is my only ~gift~, it is a ~miracle~ for a ^Sad ~heart~ and ~mind~ to ^Turn.  I ^Say it is our ^Mutual ~presence~ and not ~words~ that ^Matter in this ~gift~ for neither of us can ^Speak nor ^Share a ^Common language beyond the ~heart~.  My ~turn~ of ~sorrow~ on its behalf or perhaps even my ~look~ of ~sorrow~, that is also ~important~ to me in these ~interactions~.  Is that ~important~ to the bird, also?  I can't ^See the ~heart~ of the bird nor do I ^Assert that it could ^See the ~heart~ of a dog. 

Today this morning, I, the dog, ^Look in the ~mirror~ at the ~mess~ on my head ~as~ a lion's mane.  ^Again I ^Go and ^Sit on the porch for sake of my ^Own ~comfort~ and ~hygiene~.  And ^Again a bird does ^Come to ^Join me and ^Sing.  And it has a ^Similar ^Sad ~song~.  ^As before I ^Follow ~wisdom~ to her ~end~ to ^Sit with my ^Sad ~buddy~.  But this bird, although its ~song~ is of the same species, is quite ~different~ in that it does not ^Stay ~quiet~.  By each ~song~ the bird by its ~connection~ does ^Trust to ^Show yet ^More ~sorrow~ in their ^Harmonious ~song~. 

So much ~sorrow~ for ^One ^Small bird!  ^How long did it ^Hold that weight of ~emotion~ in its ~depth~?  Its ~feelings~ ^Flow out in ~repeat~ ~as~ each ~wave~ in the tide's ~return~.  ^Again, I ^Turn in ~sorrow~ in ~depth~ of my ^Present ~heart~ ^Such that ^Now I ^Give a few ~tears~ for this bird's ~message~.  In an ~hour~, the bird does ^Overcome its ~sorrow~ to ^Sing in ~joy~. 

And the bird does ^Sing to me ^Two ^More times.  I can't ^Say whether these ^Last ^Two gifts were ~sad~ or ~happy~ but it was so ^Beautiful to me.  ^As I ^Listen, I ^See that the bird is ^Now ~strong~ to ^Stretch and ^Expand their ~rhythm~ so that it may ^Draw me in and ^Encircle my ~heart~ in ~return~.  ^Again and ^Last, in its ~song~ it has a ^Great sweep to ^Create its ~song~ ^Slowly ~as~ ~one~ ^Who has ~patience~ to ^Believe that another ~soul~ could ^Receive it ^Well.  So I did ^Receive it ^Well.  To ^Give from a ^Humble ~mind~ and ~heart~ has ~power~ to ^Beautify. 

In that ~depth~ of ~sorrow~, I ^Think our ~words~ or ~message~ ^Matter ^More, or maybe it is just the ~tears~.  I ^Believe our ^Conscious ~mind~ may ^Need to ^Participate to ^Heal an ^Unknown burden in ~full~.  So today I ^Find that the ~tenderness~ of a ~buddy~ and a ~sorrow~ to ^Share from a ~depth~ may ^Become ~sufficient~ to ^Reward us with ~joy~ once we ^Join ^Together for sake of ~emotion~.  We may ^Find a ^Bigger ~reward~ from it also. 

^Let me ^Tell you about a thief ^Who was not, in a ~time-and-place~ before The Book of ^MESH.  And it was at the very same gate of ~heaven-or-hell~ ^Where I ~found~ ~one~ in ~wait~ for me to ^Arrive.  It was before the ~day~ that God at the ~start~ of my hardest ~day~ did ^Counsel with me the ^Whole ~day~ beginning at that gate.  And it was the ~start~ of that ~day~, ^Where ~one~ did ^Give me a ~name~ of ~friendship~ and then ~caution~ and then ~compassion~ and then ~connection~.  The ~connection~ was to ^Ride his ^Own (bi-)~cycle~ with my ~path~, the ~path~ of a dog, and I did ^Run beside. 

I once had my ^Own (bi-)~cycle~ and in the ~form~ of a Y-frame it did ^Give me my ^Own ^Best ~why~ in my ^Daily ~run~.  And ^Daily I ^Ride my (bi-)~cycle~ ~straight~ through the ^Open gate ^Alone and in ^Full ~self-control~ for sake of my ^Daily ~run~.  And that ^Small ~vehicle~ I ^Leave in ~trust~ of ~self-control~ of every ~soul~.  In my ^Winter ~mind~ I also ^Hold it ~as~ a ~temptation~ to all others not ^Sparingly. 

So, ~as~ we may ^Assert would ^Always ^Happen to a ~reward~ and ^No ~guard~, ^One ~day~ in my ~return~ through the gate after my ~run~, my (bi-)~cycle~ does ^Manifest a (~super~-)~power~ to ^Vanish from its ~space~ of ~trust~.  And my ^Conscious ~mind~ could ^Never ^Assert ^Such ~evil~ for it is the ~opposite~ of ~hope~ in a world of ~self-control~.  I do not ^Know yet that to ^Take itself may ^Become an ^Essential ~part~ of our ~daily-self-care~ even though I have a ~habit~ to ^Take a ^Daily ~run~ and I am ~strong~ in ~purpose~ to do so. 

In (dis-)~belief~ of the magic ^Now ^Manifest I ^Walk through the gate of ~heaven-or-hell~.  At the ^First ^Outward ~step~ of my ~foot~ I ^See a tall thin man with a beard and long hair ^Who does ^Dress and ^Appear ~as~ ~one~ ^Who is ~poor~ in the ~earth~.  He is ~near~ to ^Walk in ~front~ of me and then ^Immediately in ~surprise~ of my ~presence~ he does ^React to ^Run from me and the gate, along the ~wall~ of the gate until he does also ^Vanish—perhaps he does ^Leave or ^Depart ~as~ ^Quickly ~as~ my ~ride~.  I am not thin, my hair is short and I have ^No beard so in ~clarity~ I can ^Discern that the man is not me, but his ~talent~, ~appearance~ and ~surprise~ do ^Bear ^Curiously ^Like a ~match~ to ~one~ ^Who may ^Be the thief of my ~ride~. 

And it is also in ~match~ to the ~poor~ and to ~one~ ^Who may ^Hold ~wisdom~ from God, for a beard and long hair is cool, and it is God's gate to ^Keep, although in those days it is ^Always ~open~ and without a ~guard~.  ^Now we ^Return to another ~day~, today, the very ~day~ I ^First ^Write this to you all.  I ^Still am ~fat~, but ^Now I have a beard and long hair and am ~poor~ in the ~earth~.  I ^See the man ^Who did ^Come in ~independence~ before me to ^Nourish ^Where I also am ^Come to ^Nourish. 

And I ^Think, He is ^Like me, so I will ^Talk with him and ^Laugh.  ^Wait.  ^Now I ^Recognize.  ^Surely it is the man, the very same ^Who did ^Startle at the gate. 

^Like me he does ^Study in a book before breakfast except I can't ^Study today.  I ^Come to read from the New Testament in this ~space~ and only ^When my ~weakness~ isn't too ~great~ to ^Stop me.  I ^Ask myself, ^What does he read? 

^As ~soon~ ~as~ I ^See the ~name~ of the ^Bigger book, The Mahabharata, he does ^Depart in haste and I ^Imagine it is with a ^Naughty ~smile~, for I do not ^Confront him about his ~presence~ and ~talent~ to ^Vanish all those days ago.  But I ^Ask and ^Learn I should and shouldn't ^Consume that book also, by which I ^Know I shouldn't.  I should in that it is from a people I ^Love and many ^Hold a ^Good report of ~wisdom~ about it also. 

But I also ^See a ^Small ~signal~ against it.  Perhaps it is very ~good~ for us, but a chapter of it is somehow missing?  ^Where is the chapter that does ^Tell us ^How, ^Where after an ^Evil ~day~, ~peace~ is ~born~ ^Again into every ~heart~? 

That ~problem~ of ~lack~ is easy to ^Repair sometimes because the ~evil~ is by ~lack~ of my ~presence~.  I ^Need only ^Join and ^Speak to ^Repair for ^Such a ~signal~ of ~harm~ is only ~evidence~ of a wrong upon ^What did ^Happen to it.  However, sometimes in this ~caution~ of ~evil~, I ^React to ^Provide a ~figure~ of ~peace~ that I may ^Now ^Repair it and ~instead~ ^Find it a ~trap~ of ~evil~, so I must ^Refuse to ^Repair or in ~sorrow~, ^Undo my ~repair~.  ^Such is ~as~ a ~fortress~ of ~sorrow~ for I ^Hope to ^Restore beyond a ~wall~ which I can't ^Overcome. 

That my ~sin~ may ^Vanish, ^Where I can't ^Come to ^Restore, I must send.  ^Who may ^Receive my ~message~? 

And ^Who may ^Open the gate?  Do not ^Worry for the ~gift~ of my ~return~ will not ^Come even ^One ~day~ ^Early, but a thief may ^Delay it, for I may ^Need to ^Walk without a ~vehicle~.  ^Remember, my (bi-)~cycle~ is ^Still ~lost~ and I have ^No ~replacement~. 

I have ^No ~loss~ in ~reward~, but I am ~confused~ for by my ^Conscious ~mind~ ^How can I ever ^Refuse to ^Trust in ~self-control~?  I ^Give ~grace~ to ^One ~outcast~ until the ~day~ of ~judgment~ or the ~day~ he may ^Yield and ^Return.